A quarter through 2008, and it has been terribly insane. Just 2hours into 1st Jan, something happened to me, which indeed mark a bad start to date.


Now, I don't know where to start, but I just wished that granny will survive through this ordeal. Its scary. 2 weeks ago, when mum told me about it, I couldn't hold back my tears and sob my hearts out in my office toilet. When returned home that evening, I saw Granny's face and cried in my room once again. Everyone in the entire family had their lips sealed on her illness. But somehow or rather, deep inside her heart, she knew something was amissed. Yesterday Granny cried and told mummy "日子一天天得靠近了".


Only 2 of my friends knew about this matter. And I really thank her for hearing me out on that Saturday morning.


Job is screwing me up and I am still wondering if I have made the clever move and right choice. Every single day, my brain kept recurring with the same old message, "What do I want?" "What am I after?"


Life have been so fuck up. I really need a good break. I'm neither here nor there.